I had a friend that tak nak sekolah dah. Like she went to the teacher and said that she wanted to quit from school. And of courselah kan, that teacher asked why.. I do still remembered that she cakap, "my friends likes to gossip-ing (kecik hati I masa ni tau), the students were so fake, cikgu-cikgu kat sekolah ni semuanya fake; dalam lain kat luar lain, and sistem pengurusan especially education system were so not right and bla bla bla..."

So the teacher sighed and replied, "Okay boleh, tapi kena bawak segelas air penuh ni mengelilingi bangunan sekolah ni tanpa tumpahkannya waima setitis pun." My friend agreed. And she did. Then the teacher asked her one question, "when you brought that water keliling sekolah ni, did you hear anything, like gossip-ing?? Or did you see the fake people like you talked before??" And my friend said no. "Do you know why you didn't hear them all?", the teacher asked again. And my friend's answer was still no. And jawapan the teacher for her was so amazing and Subhanallah Allahuakbar Alhamdulillah..

"It was because you were so focus to not tumpahkan air dalam gelas yang you bring tu and you were so focus on the way you walked so that you takkan tersadung or terjatuh and etc."

So that's how life supposed to be, to be exact... Bila kita fokuskan hidup kita ni untuk Allah, untuk Akhirat nanti, untuk Syurga nanti, so:
  • Kita takkan ada masa nak tengok; orang ni silap, orang ni salah, orang tu tak betul and all that.
  • Kita takkan ada masa nak judge and criticize people around us.
  • Kita takkan nak bergossip with our cliques and talk about nothing.

Bila mana kita memfokuskan kehidupan kita hanya pada Allah SWT, we will definitely help people and also we will focus to achieve redha Allah SWT.. :)

We should not to be worry tentang apa yang orang cakapkan.. Cebause Because bila orang merendahkan kita, kita takkan jadi sampah. Bila orang sanjung kita, kita pun takkan jadi rembulan. So jangan risau dan jangan fikirkan langsung apa yang orang nak cakap, sebab setiap orang yang nampak dan tengok dan nilai kita, setiap daripada mereka mempunyai pandangan yang amatlah berbeza, bergantung macam mana dorang nak tengok kita, dorang nak judge kita.

Teruskanlah melangkah selama engkau berada in a right track, eventhough people throw shits at your kindness. There is no need explanation about yourself: "aku ni jenis macam ni, aku ni jenis macam tu." No need to explain anything. People who likes you takkan perlukan tu sebab they do like you. People who hates you will not going to believe that. So yeah, what's the point, aite?

Life is not about who is the best, but life is about who wants to do good. And if someone hurts you, do not revenge. Kill 'em with kindness (Selenator fans here!) Balaslah kejahatan ke atasmu dengan dengan kebaikan ke atas mereka.

Do not give up. Make yourself busy with kindness sampai keburukan pun dah malas nak follow kau. And have faith, Allah is with you.

P/S: Note to self, and others. <3


Friday, September 22, 2017

Masa Dah Time 

Hi guys! This is going to be my first entry since the last entry I posted was about a month ago??? (sorry!!!) Well. For the past... I don't know, two to three weeks ago or even worst, two to three months ago was a very-very not me. Me was not being me. Y'all know what am I saying, right?? Blurrffff...

I've been searching for myself like crazy... I don't know what I want.. I don't know what I need... I don't even know apa yang aku nak mintak kat Tuhan... I lost, dude. I do. 

It was so freakin hard weh to get up and move on and do what I need have to do. It's already September 2017 but still, I didn't archieved what I supposed to archieve. Well, yeah. I have done my degree life and felt relived bila settle semua on degree life #roadtoconvo (tapi taknak update kat socmed sebab ada kawan aku yang tak dapat nak merasa U life and felt kesian dengan dorang kalau dorang nampak gambar aku sana sini lama-lama jadi menyampah pulak) (later I post entry bout this stuff)

But still, I have nothing.. I mean I felt like I did nothing. Yet.. 

I didn't get any offer for a job. And even if I do, I still couldn't go to. Sebab my job opportunities mostly banyak dan cerah kat KL dan Shah Alam, which was, yeah. My mom didn't allowed me to go far from her. So yeah, I packed my stuffs at Shah Alam and I returned.. Home...

You know, eventhough at that time, I felt macam bodoh gile left all of my living life there, but still. I was okay and I was doing fine. (I guess because of mom's blessings?? who knows right?) She claimed that I didn't belong there sebab tiap minggu dan pantang cuti je aku mesti balik. So yeap. It might be one of the reason, kan???

Mom asks me to follow the tradition which is menjahit. Yeap. She even asked me to sign up for a sewing lesson. So yeah, I guess it leads to #1 when she ordered me to come home. You know... To help and collaborate with her. (menjahit is fun! seriously!)

Our photography business were so busy namapus like busy gila I cant even have one day rest!! Nope! Monday till Friday are my sewing lesson class, Saturday and Sunday are when I am at kenduri, and tangkap gambar people. So yeah. No rest day or even a cheat day (bukan cheat day untuk orang diet ke??) But, but, but. It was so much fun. Penat! Tipu kalau tak penat. Tapi ni kan dunia je. Nanti kat Akhirat rehatlah puas-puas. And this #3 will leads to #4 nanti.

#4 - this is the positive point :)
I've gained so many experiences! I explored so many places eventhough the places was near to my house. Seriously weh, you don't have to travel far to collect experiences and explore new things. You just have to stop and look around you. There are so many pengalaman yang you boleh kutip. Takyah nak travel jauh-jauh semata-mata nak ikut orang lain dan setakat nak upload gambar kau travelled kat socmed kau. Serious. Take a look around you. 

I am no longer a planner addict. With my very tight schedule buat aku takde masa langsung untuk tulis cantik-cantik planner aku. (so rugi sebab dengan planner sedikit sebanyak life kau akan teratur). So I tried my best untuk carik masa tulis planner aku (pray for me!)

And there is many more tapi tak nak cakap kat sini, 'cause it's quite personal. SO yeah. At the age of 21 23, I felt like I ruined my life. But it's a lesson, kan? I make mistakes, but it's okay. It is a learning process. So, what have you doing for these couple of weeks? :) Feel free to share it with in the comment down below! <3


Monday, September 11, 2017

What A Hectic Me

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